WHEN PEOPLE DIE
Intellectually, we all know that we
will someday die.
But I don’t
think we know that emotionally.
Sometimes, I
feel eternal, though I know that’s self-delusion.
So, when
someone we admire or love dies, it digs a crater in our hearts and mind.
When my mother
died, on the way from the service to the cemetery, my father said to the
mortician who was driving us, “With my wife dead, I have nothing to live for.”
I was about to
ask, “how about living for me?”
But the driver
said the perfect response, “You can’t imagine how many people have said that to
me.”
Death is
universal and so is grieving.
My father
lived 12 more years and he did, indeed, lose interest in life. He paid very
little attention to his grandchildren when they came to be.
When I moved
him to CT, I discovered all my mother’s clothes were still in his house.
Most people
survive from the loss of loved one. But it takes time and effort.
I was with him
in the hospital the day he died. We had had the most cogent conversation we’d
had in several years. After an hour by his bed, I said, “OK, Dad, I’m going
home now.”
And he
replied, “so am I”.
If he had been
a parishioner, I would have sat down and held his hand. But he was my father
and I assumed he’d slipped back into his dementia.
By the time I
got home, 15 minutes later, the Hospital had already called.
I turned
around and went back to sit by his deathbed.
The nurse’s
aide who had been shaving him when he died, told me he sat up, nearly making
her cut him, and said, “I gotta get out of here!”
Not bad last
words.
I have a poem
to share, written by a college classmate of mine. She wrote it for a friend who
had died in Viet Nam.
I was the
editor of the student magazine and published it.
I think it is
full of truth.
WHEN
PEOPLE DIE
When people die
It’s like a bird flying into a window
On the coldest morning of the
year.
When people die
It’s like the bear’s have escaped from
the zoo
And are eating children on
the street.
When people die
It’s like a maniac has taken over the
power station
And the lights go off and on
and off
And on and off.
When people die.
Now, some other folks have some things to share….