Wednesday, September 16, 2020

I have nothing much to write

I have nothing much to write tonight.

I want, at all costs, not to mention the president or the race for president.

The Yankees (my team since childhood) have hit six home runs in two straight games--a record for even a team called the 'Bronx Bombers'.

The day was so cool I have on jeans and a light sweater. 

Brigit is completely well from her sickness. Not only does she eat breakfast and dinner all down, she wants treats and stuff from our meals. It's so good to have her back. We love her so.

I thought today was Thursday so that I tried to get on a zoom that IS for Thursday.

Life is so weird I forget which day it is from time to time. Nothing is regular.

Pinot Ggrigio is what I drink, though my spell check doesn't recognize that wine.

I miss Josh and Cathy and the three Bradley girls so much. We haven't seen them since Christmas.

We have seen Mimi and Tim and Eleanor 3 times since then, but they're in upstate New York and can come to CT. You can't go from Maryland to CT or the other way around yet because of the virus.

See, I got through this without being political at all.

But wait for tomorrow's post! 

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLcFflZ7LjKCAqPJyfVmdNA8L7eeADtTSW (my video blog)

I shouldn't have to say all opinions here are mine and mine alone for this post.

  

Tuesday, September 15, 2020

Climate change

 It was cloudy in CT. The weather gurus told us over and again it was smoke from California and Oregon and Washington state's forest fires.

3000 miles the smoke has traveled!

How bad must it be out on the West Coast?

And hurricane Sally is flooding areas from Florida to Alabama and Mississippi. 

The 7th hurricane of the season. Three more storms are lining up across the Atlantic. Six is the average number of hurricanes a year until now. A month and a half left in hurricane season. It gets longer each year, just as forest fire season gets longer each year in the west.

Biden is proposing massive Climate Change legislation that would create millions of jobs.

And the President, just a day or two ago, meeting with the governor and scientists is California, denied climate change by saying, it will get 'cooler', believe me, it will.

I have four granddaughters. I want to give them a world that is safe.

If this president is re-elected, the world will grow more frightening.

Do what you need to do. Vote for Biden/Harris in November.

Only that will make my granddaughters world livable.


All opinions here are mine and mine alone.


Monday, September 14, 2020

The part I don't like--but need to do

There is so much about being an Episcopal priest that I love--the community, the love, the fun, the relationships, the conversations, the communion (both liturgical and personal).

But there is a part I don't like--but need to do.

The priest at St. John's in Waterbury, where I was for 21 years, called me yesterday. He's on vacation in Maine, and asked me for a pastoral favor.

A couple I married 20 some years ago, were at Waterbury hospital with their 19 year old son on life support. 

Of course I did the favor. This is the part of being a priest that I don't like--but need to do. All the good stuff is to build relationships for moments like these. This is what I need to be to be a priest.

I called them and met them at the hospital half-an-hour later. I'd never seen a patient on so many machines and I've been in Intensive Care a lot.

Masked, I hugged his mom and dad. And then anointed him and prayed for him, holding his hand and touching his face.

Then I asked, "I know this is a hard question, but do you want me to give him last rites?"

They sadly, but earnestly, shook their heads 'yes'.

So, I did.

I'm not sure I've given last rites to a person I baptized as a baby before. But I've baptized lots of babies and given lots of last rites.

I left with more hugs and not a few tears.

I hardly slept at all last night.

He died at 3:18 a.m. this morning.

What a tragedy.

I enjoy the good parts, the joyous parts of being a priest.

But these are the things I was called by God to priesthood to do.

I don't like them--but I need to do them.

These are the times I was chosen to live.

I blame God and thank God at the same time for the pain and privilege to be there for those times.

Those times are why I am a priest.



 

 

Emma and Morgan

Today on zoom, we talked to our twin granddaughters. Emma and Morgan Bradley on their birthday. They are 14, turning into young women.

We were in NYC the day they were born and saw them, along with their maternal grandmother, Mrs. Chen, because the nurse stopped at our floor and let us look at them in the elevator.

They didn't look much alike that day--Emma had black hair and Morgan had brown hair, for one thing.

They are far from identical twins. If you saw them in a group of young women, you might even not think that they could be sisters.

Emma has her mother's Asian hair but very American looks. Morgan's face is slightly Asian, but her hair is American brown.

Tegan, three years younger was on the zoom call as well. She really doesn't look much like either of them.

Granddaughter--4 of them, the Bradley girls and Eleanor McCarthy--are our gift to the world.

We love them so.

They are so perfect, so fine, so lovable.

We are blessed by them.



  

Saturday, September 12, 2020

An autumn day

It was crisp and cool all day.

 Autumn in New England is wondrous!

Soon, all the leaves will be falling and cool nights will prevail.

I love the autumn.

Darkness comes sooner every day and missing the light is one of the precious things about autumn.

Air-conditioners will be off and out soon. Long sleeves will be the rule.

I wore jeans today instead of shorts for the first time in months.

We didn't get to go on vacation at Oak Island, North Carolina. We would have left today to fly to Myrtle Beach and drive north.

I missed that. Tim and Mimi and Eleanor would have been with us--and Jack and Sherry and John. It would have been great. But not in this pandemic. Not at all.

I don't like winter--and autumn means it is coming. But for a few months I'll relish the chill and the vanishing light and the pray for Spring.

Always pray for spring....

 

 

Friday, September 11, 2020

9/11

Something for this day.

 

Tuesday, September 13, 2016

9/11 sermon

9/11/16 Sermon (St. Andrew’s, Northford)
 
   
        Fifteen years ago today, I was brushing my 
 
teeth, listening to Imus in the Morning on my clock
 
 radio. (I know, I know…I’m not an Imus kind of
 
guy…I’m a Public Radio kind of guy…but he was,
 
 from time to time, dreadfully amusing--accent on
 
 'dreadful'!)
        Imus said something about a plane flying into the World Trade Center, so I went to our TV room, upstairs, and turned it on.
        Bern had left early for a dental appointment, so I was alone when the second plane hit the second tower. I had my toothbrush in my mouth and couldn’t comprehend what was happening. Suddenly I heard Bern’s pickup truck skid into the driveway outside in a way I’d never heard before. I listened to her tear open the front door and run up the steps calling my name as I watched, stunned and numb, as two skyscrapers burned.
        Bern ran into the TV room and said, horrified and breathless: “The kids…the kids!!!)
        Suddenly it occurred to me that both our children lived in Brooklyn, just across the river from the World Trade Center and I should be worried and terrified, not stunned and numb.
        It took a couple of hours to reach both Josh and Mimi. Mimi came up out of a subway near 890 Broadway and saw smoke in the sky. It was her first day of work at the American Ballet Theatre. We would talk with her as she walked back to Brooklyn.
        Josh was a law student living with a classmate who is now our daughter in law and mother of three of our granddaughters. He could see the twin towers from the street where they lived. Cathy Chen, his love, had taken a subway to Manhattan just a half-hour before. He was frantic. He couldn’t call her on her cell phone. Her train would have stopped at the World Trade Center exit.
        Josh stayed outside most of the day. Cathy got in touch as she walked across the Brooklyn Bridge and Josh called us. Mimi and Tim, her boyfriend and now husband and parents of our fourth granddaughter, found each other walking home over the Williamsburg Bridge.
        They were all safe. Praise God. But thousands weren’t.
        I went to St. John’s in Waterbury because I expected people might want to talk to someone about all this that was happening. Harriet and Sue, our office folks, and I were watching the news on Harriet’s computer—still total confusion and terror. We watched the buildings fall.
        My assistant at the time wasn’t watching with us. She was doing busy work and calling people about other things. I asked if she would come and watch with us.
        She told me this: “it’s just the chickens coming home to roost.”
        I let out a gasp and said, “you can’t say that Right Now. Maybe, years from now you can connect what our nation has done to this. But not now, not for years. Thousands are dead and dying. You can’t say that!”
        She ignored me and left a short time after. Our friendship and working relationship was over. She left St. John’s a few months later.
 
        But losing a friend and a colleague is nothing at all compared to the sons/daughters, wives/husbands/lovers, fathers/mothers, sisters/brothers lost that awful day. Nothing at all to that pain. Nothing at all.
 
        The pain of 9/11 is beyond calculation. It continues still, 15 years later. And it will never be healed. It may be ‘moved beyond’, but never ‘healed’. Never. Not ever.
 
        But we must not forget this: the lost sheep, the lost coin in today's gospel. We must not lose them.
        A great deal of irrational hatred was spawned by 9/11—hatred of good people, good Muslims, good Americans.
        In 2001, there was a mosque that met in the parish hall of St. John’s in Waterbury. We had shared much with them. We knew them well. We stood by them—they were the lost sheep, isolated by the hatred around them. They were the lost coin, branded because some, claiming to be of their faith, had created terror.
       
        Here is what I believe (and this is ‘just me talkin’) this painful anniversary calls upon you and me to do. We must love, not hate. We must embrace the stranger, not reject them. We must know the value of the ‘lost’ in our midst. We must never let pain turn to hate, fear turn to anger.
        All Americans were attacked that day, not just some of us.
        That is how we give honor to those who died, by refusing to be divided and set against each other.
        We must seek out and save those ‘lost’ because of irrational hatred. We must sweep the floor of those who would polarize and divide us.
        We must remember that we all arrived on these shores lost and rejected and celebrate how diverse we are as a people: racially, ethnically, culturally and spiritually.
        To truly move on from that awful day 15 years ago, we must embrace the diversity that truly makes us strong…that truly makes us One.
        To do less than that is to dishonor those who died that tragic day.
Amen.

 

Thursday, September 10, 2020

Insects

 How tiny some of them are!

I know whales and elephants and rhinos are much larger than we humans.

But not to the degree that we are to some--most--insects.

I saw a moth outside a few minutes ago that was as small as the white on my thumb.

I make a point not to kill insects--except flies.

But the other day, when I was on the deck reading, a tiny bug, no bigger than a pencil dot, was on my book. I blew it off, but realized it was on the arm of my Adirondack chair and when I put my book down, I killed it.

I felt awful.

I didn't intend to do that.

Tiny things need to be protected and honored--except flies.

I broke my vow to leave them whole.

And who knows how many ants I kill just walking to my car?

We must share the planet with tiny creatures.



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