Tuesday, March 29, 2022

Doing taxes

I can't seem to finish the work I need to do to take my taxes to H&R Block to be filed.

I have everything I need on the dining table, but just can't bring myself to do the numbers.

If you're not an ordained clergy person you are missing a great break.

I get to deduct all our housing costs from our income--utilities, property tax, repairs and upgrades, new furniture, home loans--the whole kit and kabudle (which I can't spell!).

Saves a lot of money.

We bring in, from all sources, over a $100,000 a year and always get a several thousand dollar refund from the IRS.

Maybe get ordained!

I've got to get it done this week.

Really.

 

Monday, March 28, 2022

I can't believe...

...I haven't posted since last Thursday!

I'm not sure what kept me away from my blog.

Just lost in thought and pondering stuff, I guess.

I've said before and I'll say again that I 'ponder' a lot. 

The definition of 'ponder' is 'to think deeply about something'.

I've been doing that about Ukraine and the seeming lessening of Covid and the crazy Senators who questioned Judge Brown-Jackson and the NCAA basketball tourney. 

I ponder all sorts of things.

I even ponder the early life of our dog, Brigit.

When we adopted her she was afraid of almost everything and everyone.

Now she knows this is her 'home' and she is safe.

What made her so afraid?

More than that, 'who' made her so afraid?

I hope God deals with that 'who'.

So, I haven't posted for three days.

Sorry, won't happen again until our vacation in Aug.-Sept. since I do this on my computer which isn't portable.

 

Thursday, March 24, 2022

I hate the winter

 I know I've said it before here--but I really hate the cold.

I've been itchy all winter.

My skin reacts to the chill.

After a few Spring-like days we're back in the 40's and 30's in CT and the back of my leg, near the knee is itching like crazy.

But that's not the only thing that makes me itch.

The Republicans, except for Sen. Sasse, were mostly horrible to Judge Jackson in her hearings before them.

I realize that we are a divided nation--but whatever happened to being polite and reasonable?

Is that gone too?

How I miss the warmth--both in the weather and human relations.

We've got to do better as a people.

And Spring must come.

Meanwhile I'll scratch my itches....


This week's sermon

THE PRODIGAL: COMING HOME  Lent IV, 2022

 

          In the end, he came home. He came home and found a welcome there.     The problem with today’s parable is that we have all heard it too many times. It’s one of those passages that’s familiar to everyone.

          Two sons/rich father/younger son wants his inheritance/gets money and goes on a toot/runs out of money and goes home/father rushes to embrace him/cloak and ring and kill the calf/big party/elder son feels betrayed/father says “get over it and rejoice”.  End of story.

          So the preacher asks us to consider “how we’re like the younger son” and “how we’re like the elder son” and “what do we learn from all this?”

          We learn about the need to repent our sins.

          We learn God always forgives.

          We learn how we feel neglected and overlooked and jealous.

          We learn that God invites us to go beyond that and join the party.

          End of sermon….Time for the Nicene Creed.   

 

          That’s the problem with this parable—we know it so well we think we know what it means. The truth just seems so…so obvious.

          In the end, the Prodigal came home and found a welcome there.

Perhaps the parable isn’t merely about the characters or repentance or forgiveness or the invitation to rejoice. Perhaps, there is something deeper, something more profound and, ultimately, more troubling and challenging. Perhaps the subtle, quiet tune that repeats and repeats beneath the louder major chords of Jesus’ story is the one we need to listen for.

Perhaps, in the end, that tune is calling us to “come home”.

In John’s Gospel, Jesus says:

“Just as the Father has loved me, I have loved you, abide in my love. If you obey my teachings you will abide in my love just as I have obeyed my Father and abide in him.”

In another place he says, “If anyone loves me…my father will love him, and we will come and abide in him.”

 

The Greek verb that keeps getting translated as “abide” is monain—and one of the possible translations of monain would be “make your home with….”

How remarkably that changes those verses:

I have loved you, make your home in my love…

…If anyone loves me, my father will love him and we will come and make our home in him….

The noun of the English verb “abide” is abode—a place to live, a place to abide, a home…. As in “welcome to my humble abode….”

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         When the younger son has hit rock bottom: alone, disgraced, penniless, sitting among the pigs, longing for their food he came to himself.

          “He came to himself”—what a remarkable phrase! We could interpret it any number of ways: “he came to his senses”; “he woke up”; “he realized who he was”; “he had a breakthrough”, “he saw the truth”….add your own way of saying it.

          But this we know: once he came to himself, he decided to GO HOME.

          GOING HOME is a difficult decision—painful and wrenching and humiliating. “Going home” isn’t something people do unless they are driven to it by the circumstances of life.

          When an adult child moves back in with their parents because they lost their job or their marriage broke up, it is often a source of embarrassment for all concerned. What we’re taught, in this culture, from the time we are children is that the “point of life” is to LEAVE HOME and “be on our own” and “make our own life” and “pay our own way.” Going Home in our middle-class society is an act of desperation. It is the last resort.

          So this sub-theme of the Prodigal and his brother—this “call” to Come Home—runs against the grain and swims upstream.

          The year I went away to college, my parents moved to a different town. So when I came home, nothing was the same. Going Home, even under the best conditions, is jarring and unsettling because the home you come back to is never the one you left.

          The great American novelist, Thomas Wolfe, enshrined our view of “going home” in the title of his best known book: You Can’t Go Home Again.

So, what does it mean to us that the story of the Prodigal and his brother is a story of “coming home”?

          Henri Nouwen wrote a book about Rembrandt’s painting of “The Return of the Prodigal Son”. In that book, Nouwen relates something a dear friend of his told him. Listen: “Whether you are the younger son or the elder son, you have to realize that you are called to become the father.”

          That is true for each of us. Jesus’ parable calls us to “come to ourselves” and find, in the innermost parts of our being, the compassion and love and un-judgmental hospitality of the father in the story. It is valuable and important to examine how we are “the Prodigal” and how we are the “elder son”. We can grow from that revelation. But the growth of realizing we are just like the brothers isn’t nearly enough.

We are called by God to “come to” our deepest SELF—the SELF that welcomes “home” both the humiliation and the arrogance within us; that welcomes “home” both our thoughtlessness and our resentments; that welcomes “home” both the brokenness and the self-righteousness of our lives.

          We are called far, far past recognizing the two brothers in ourselves to un-concealing the wise, gentle and all-loving parent so well hidden in our hearts. And that is there—deeper down and further in. That is there, believe me.

          Beyond that—beyond even that—this parable calls to US as a church, to create a HOME where God will dwell with us and we will dwell with God.

          Let me say it again, just so I can begin to believe it: you and I are called to create the space where God can make a home in the hearts and lives of each of us and those who aren’t here yet.

          What would that “look like”? How would that be?

          I wish I knew completely.

          I do know a few things about it. Like the father in the parable today, we must welcome “home”—to a place of acceptance—all those who come broken and hurting. Like the father in the parable, we must invite the faithful and the dependable into a celebration and a feast beyond their imagining. There must be no “judgment” here. This must be a place where those who cause pain and those who feel pain are brought together and made one and reconciled. This must be a place of refreshment and hospitality and invitation and healing. This must be a place of “homecoming” to a HOME like nothing we have ever known before. This must be a place where God can make a home with us and we can make a home with God.

          What we do up here is invite Christ to “make his home” within us. We literally take Christ’s Body and Blood within ourselves.

 “Come home”—bring your brokenness and your prideful-ness—God will give you welcome here.

          “Come home,” come taste and see how sweet the Lord can be.

          “Come home” to your deepest self and make your home with God.

          “Come home….”                                 

 

Tuesday, March 22, 2022

I've been paying attention

I've not watched all of Judge Ketanji Brown Jackson's hearing with the Senate, but I've watched quite a bit.

She is gracious, friendly, committed and capital S smart.

If Ted Cruz or Tom Cotton were my Senators, I'd put everything in Bern's name, buy a gun and shoot them.

(Not really, but I find them despicable people. Cruz dragged Critical Race Theory--which is only taught in law school but Republicans across the country are passing laws against it being taught in public schools!--and which, by the way, only looks at our history accurately by assessing racism. Cruz tried to connect Ketanji to the theory--because she's black, I suppose--but failed.

Cotton kept asking her questions about her opinion on such things as should rape and murder and other crimes be more firmly enforced and she kept telling him, gently and politely (which he was not) "Senator, I don't make the laws, you do. It's up to you to make those laws.")

I can't stand how divided and splintered we are as a country.

I want a Congress that calls each other names and then goes out for a drink across party lines.

How did we get here?

I blame Newt Gingrich for starting us down the path to today....

 

Monday, March 21, 2022

This may offend some folks

I got a card today from Dr. Oz telling me I had been selected as part of a trial group for a pill he developed to make erections stronger and even make your penis grow!

He is a Turkish-American who served in the Turkish military and is running as a conservative Republican in the Pennsylvania primary for Senate (though he lives in New Jersey).

He is courting the former president and says he will give up his dual citizenship in Turkey if elected.

He is, as far as I can tell, a sham and a disgrace to the medical profession.

I will not feel bad if he is soundly rejected in PA.

I will not answer his card.

He is 'from Oz' as well as Turkey and a total jerk.

 

Friday, March 18, 2022

I sat outside

I sat outside in the Spring-like weather for a long time in one of the Adirondack chairs our friend Hank (now dead) helped Bern build.

With all that's going on in the world, it was a welcomed relief.

I listened to a woodpecker pecking wood for a while.

I heard the birds that are coming back singing.

I watched a squirrel in our back yard for 5 minutes or so until he/she ran off.

I looked at the sky and the kids in the house beyond our back yard playing and two teen girls next door passing a ball back and forth.

Bern and Brigit came out for a while.

Bern and I talked while Brigit ran in the yard.

A good break from what is going on in the world and the worries and anxiety those things call.

I recommend taking time apart to just sit and watch and listen and ponder what you see and hear.

Good for the soul.

Surely good for mine today.

 

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some ponderings by an aging white man who is an Episcopal priest in Connecticut. Now retired but still working and still wondering what it all means...all of it.